I. Apocrypha
I heard God's voices
canticles of fear
sung by broken zombies
who waited too long
The World
Moves On
"The mice
have eaten all the corn"
seven sopranos sang
Lean, dark-eyed saints
waltzing in the grain
They fell beneath
Fate's harvester
Sing a mournful song
The World
Moves On
Only the spiders, roaches, rats
had worn their weapons well
Their jaws were loath to tell
secrets (I stopped to ask)
But I instead heard
God's voices curse and swear
the secrets are somewhere
beyond
The World
Moves On
II. The Station
A lovely blonde
with no business there
among those creatures of the night
They bought she sold
The air grew stale and old
Those large men
with drunk, red eyes
and feeble women
pretending to be strong,
they all knew--Someday
The World
Moves On
Resting grew exhausting
waiting took too long
Metros kept moving
They could not get on
Sitting gargoyles
craving midnights
that never come
So they bury their fathers
take husbands, wives
Large men speak
of motors and gears
Women wish
for magic in tears
The World
Moves On
III. A Game of Poker
Harold dealt the cards
five to a hand
"Joker's Wild"
"No one cut the deck"
Todd balked
"It doesn't matter"
I said
holding three aces
"You'd have drawn the same.
Fate doesn't cheat,
she's just a cruel bitch."
"I saw a blonde yesterday"
Harold said
"headed to L.A.
Thinks she'll be a star"
I thought of the woman
at the station
in the night
"I was there"
Todd said
"looked like a whore
if you ask me"
I tossed two cards
Todd also
Harold tossed three
Todd said
"If fate don't cheat
let me draw first."
I nodded
He drew
I drew both Jokers
"The next Monroe"
I said
IV. The House of Dreams
(Rat Infested Hellhole)
I saw
Melies' dream
Buster Keaton, Mary Pickford
Gene Kelly, Julie Andrews
I saw
Cary Grant, Orson Welles
Marilyn Monroe, Lauren Bacall
Shot down
by Edward G. Robinson
I saw
John Wayne
Harrison Ford
Billy Bob Thornton
crooked heroes
with hearts of gold
And I saw
the rage
of old war battles
the terror of aliens
bloody axes
chainsaws
knives
(on video)
The World
Moves On
V. Death by Convenience
The River chokes
on empty bottles
sandwich wrappers
cardboard boxes
cigarette butts and
styrofoam cups
Jack, the cherub,
and I sit in his truck
on the bank
during lunch
We discuss the weather
and whether
it is hotter this year than last
and hotter last than in the past
Are the winters colder,
or Old Man Winter merely older?
Is the world to burn?
The earth to freeze?
Both perhaps?
Holocaust, and nuclear night
All in all
who'll be left to say who's right?
"If these," Jack queries,
"are our dying days,
what's worth saving that we should save?"
I crush a soda can
and fling it into the cluttered woods
"All" I say
Jack's gentle hand
grasps my knee
"Better you go on than me."
I love him now
his sacrifice
and if these are our dying days
why should that be so hard to say?
Because silence is convenient
and convenience--
convenience is a thing to die for
Jack turns the key
His truck coughs on gas
"Times up," he says
and roars away
VI. The Rainstorm
God said to take my umbrella
Harold laughed
I took it anyway
Sun cooked the flesh
moving along the streets
tucked away in three-piece suits
shorts, shirts, tennis shoes
Heat baked
girls on skates
and ugly children--
bastards of the night
who can no longer
melt into the shadows
Stragglers sweat and shiver
in alleys which smell
of urine and alcohol
Psychotic vets harping
"If you haven't got a ha'penny
God Fuck You!"
I whacked 'em left and right
with my umbrella
And then the rains fell
Drops of fire from heaven
scorching the earth clean
But things went too far
and the only survivors--
Me with my umbrella
and the spiders
who spun their own
Even now
The World
Moves On
VII. Apocalypse
I feast on sand and spider webs
listen to rat-souls speak
of how they meant to sacrifice
the frightened and the weak
to slay the past--paschal lamb--
upon the altar of unsure fate
My teeth have grown sharp
my face gone furry
I killed my brother
a thousand times each day
now it's spiders
that I slay
I have seen in long, dark dreams
a silo full of souls
where every man born to die
cries in litanies of accusation
"Why why why?"
The earth but mud
beneath my feet
while God chants in voices
the names of the dead
and the lies they told
God clothes me
in his loneliness
confesses all his sins
of poker, movies, plastic bags
of cornfields, mice, and men
God and I
have said and done
everything we can
leave this world to spider webs
infinities of sand